One week (like last week), everything feels great. I feel calm, stable, and comfortable at work. The next week (like this week), I feel anxious, uncomfortable, and angry. Hmmm...maybe this is PMS. Of course, I'm sure that contributes to this yucky feeling. My bro is getting married. It feels quite bittersweet because on one hand, he is happy. He looks just overjoyed in all the pictures and has such a great group of friends. On the other hand, it has become patently clear that he is not really a part of our lives anymore. He has moved on and has another family, which he actually calls his family. I know he was bullied a lot as a kid. I feel so sad about that and really regret that I didn't know anything about it. I regret it a lot. It weighs very heavy. His wedding is just bringing up a lot of crap that I don't really want to deal with right now. It makes me want to go get a coffee and a pastry and just eat and drink.